I'm Gnome, or at least that's my trail name.
I'm 26. I live in the Pacific Northwest with my wife and 1 year old kid.
Thoughout my life I've battled against anxiety and depression and "attempts" at suicide. The former two of which I've had for as long as I can remember but have increased exponentially within this recent couple years. I did self-medicate with marijuana for about a year now until last month and although that's been beneficial for me in my anxiety it's only masked the real issues that I have with myself. I've had a really difficult time keeping a job mostly because of my depression and anxiety and I've realized that something needs to change but I've always felt like my mind is in a fog and that there's something that I need to uncover to face and deal with. I've explored the possibility of psilocybin however since it's illegal where I live it's not something that I'm willing to put myself out there to dabble in.
I found Amanita Dreamer's channel through watching some of the podcasts that Joe Rogan did with Dennis McKenna and YouTube thankfully recommended her channel to me. I found the honesty and openness and thoroughness of her research to be a breath of fresh air in my search to try and find something that might work for me and I finally ordered some amanita caps which I'm looking forward to trying in a microdose capacity.
I do wonder what you would recommend for a first trip though if I want "the work" to be done if I should do more than 15g worth in the tea at once or if micro dosing would be enough to have that work done in my mind and hopefully repairing the damage that's been done over the years. I'm open to any feedback on what all your experiences are so I can draw from that I would appreciate it.
I pray that you all experience peace during this trying time in our world and look forward to becoming part of this community as we journey together.
See you on the trail,
Gnome
Thankful for great communities of healing, health and truth..