Contemplating the journey
Posted: Sun May 31, 2020 2:19 pm
Hi, new member here, loving the videos and the advice, and just wanted to talk about my motivations to begin the amanita journey, and see if it is what I am looking for.
As a teenager and young adult I smoked weed but it didn’t do it for me, I only really got interested when I tried LSD and had my horizon extended. I loved the fun of it, but also the creativity and the insight. Same with psilocybes, and ketamine to a point.
My real love though was mdma; the togetherness, the sense of belonging, the community around it, albeit temporary, was a huge pull for me. Meeting strangers, crossing paths with people you had no right to meet and bonding was incredible. A window into how amazing humanity could be. Truly beautiful.
Anyhow, you get older, you have kids, life gets in the way and over time all that positivity gets pushed down by the day to day. And not that I don’t love my wife and kids, I do! It’s just that there’s something missing, and seeing what a clusterfuck the world has become, it drags you down.
So, I got to thinking, maybe microdosing mdma might lift some of that world-weary cynicism, and help me get back to seeing the good in society again. But something held me back, and then I saw an amanita while out walking in the forest one day. I love the idea of using what nature has given us to unlock some doorways that have been closed for a long time. The idea of a proper trip, when I get the time and space, does appeal but I’m more intrigued by the regular micro dosing and the benefits that may have.
Thing is, I read about how amanita has helped get people off synthetics, or helped with their anxiety, which is amazing, but I’m fortunate enough not to need it for that. I’m doing ok, you know, mostly. I’m not looking for that kind of help, I’m looking for something to connect me to people, to the planet, to be more creative and to drop some of my cynicism towards society.
Am I looking in the right place? Is amanita for me? I went out the other day and collected some (no shortage of supply here!) and they’re drying as we speak.
Any advice I can get from the community here would be appreciated!
As a teenager and young adult I smoked weed but it didn’t do it for me, I only really got interested when I tried LSD and had my horizon extended. I loved the fun of it, but also the creativity and the insight. Same with psilocybes, and ketamine to a point.
My real love though was mdma; the togetherness, the sense of belonging, the community around it, albeit temporary, was a huge pull for me. Meeting strangers, crossing paths with people you had no right to meet and bonding was incredible. A window into how amazing humanity could be. Truly beautiful.
Anyhow, you get older, you have kids, life gets in the way and over time all that positivity gets pushed down by the day to day. And not that I don’t love my wife and kids, I do! It’s just that there’s something missing, and seeing what a clusterfuck the world has become, it drags you down.
So, I got to thinking, maybe microdosing mdma might lift some of that world-weary cynicism, and help me get back to seeing the good in society again. But something held me back, and then I saw an amanita while out walking in the forest one day. I love the idea of using what nature has given us to unlock some doorways that have been closed for a long time. The idea of a proper trip, when I get the time and space, does appeal but I’m more intrigued by the regular micro dosing and the benefits that may have.
Thing is, I read about how amanita has helped get people off synthetics, or helped with their anxiety, which is amazing, but I’m fortunate enough not to need it for that. I’m doing ok, you know, mostly. I’m not looking for that kind of help, I’m looking for something to connect me to people, to the planet, to be more creative and to drop some of my cynicism towards society.
Am I looking in the right place? Is amanita for me? I went out the other day and collected some (no shortage of supply here!) and they’re drying as we speak.
Any advice I can get from the community here would be appreciated!